Thursday, December 9
still haf loads ta do 4 art.. taking a break now.. so sian can.. nxt year's gonna be different.. whole new experiences n all.. haiz.. i wun sae tat i can't wait 4 it 2 begin cos everytime i sae tat b4 e new year begins.. e year alwaes ends up sucking real bad n some bad event will highlight e year..
the events tat highlighted my year 2oo4?..
wells..let's juz start w the major change in my life..
- my beloved cousin who chose 2 leave me n everyone behind juz like tat.. no thankew.. no sorrie.. no goodbye..
- aaron coming in2 my life n makin everyting seem alrite..
- me having my first boyfriend.. waste of my time.. but there's no substitute 4 experience ritez..
- the melbourne trip n the hospital bills tat have come back to haunt me.. the total cost so far.. $ 157 n counting..
but 2oo4 did give me some great memories..
- emdd .. being stage manager.. meeting my daughters cheryl , xiaowei n yvonne.. bob n sandra.. helmi..
- knowing e pple in psl ex co..
- having so much fun at e beach w moi fwens..
- being on close terms with my long lost cousin jean n finding out we have so much in common..
- meeting new pple..
- becoming closer 2 pple whom i was nvr really tat close 2.. eg.. damala lim jie ting..(proud ur name here?)..
ya.. in a wae.. this year was pretty cool.. in it's own special wae i guess..
mom's scolding me again . .she starts saying tat i wun be able 2 take my Ns cos i'm so damn rebellious.. i'm so fed up.. i feel like juz running away already.. cos i'm so sick n tired of her telling me tat i can't do it.. i mean i wan to succeed.. but how can i if she keeps puttin this mindset in my head.. i used 2 juz shrug it off .. but it's becoming harder.. i'm afraid tat i wun be able 2 put up w her nonsense anymore.. i'm trying 2 hold back my tears.. cos if i cry.. tat'll juz mean tat i've lost e never ending battle with my darling mother.. i know she cares.. but guess wad .. she has terrible communication skills.. ssame goes 4 my dad.. maybe same goes 4 me..